Courage isn’t always loud or ostentatious. Sometimes courage is quiet–a timid sounding whisper in a sea of screaming fears. Gentle yet fierce: “You’ve got this.”
I wrote this after I spent the evening pouring out to friend the barrage of fears I was experiencing. Transition tends to unravel things. In me, it’s currently unraveling fear.
I am currently in the “in between.” The place between where you’ve been and where you’re going. I have spent a lot of my life in this place. More so than a lot of people I know. You’d think I would have familiarized myself with the territory. I’m less afraid of this unsettled land than I used to be, but I still tend to get lost somewhere between Trust Avenue and Control Lane and often get stuck on Decision Way. What If Alley is my least favorite of all–ominous possibilities that can send you spinning in circles.
Each stint in the “in-between” requires something different from me. This transition requires me to face a myriad of fears. Fear of failing. Fear of disappointing others. Fear of lack. Fear of loneliness. Fear of regret.
Fear. Fear. Fear.
Who will face these fears?
I see no valiant warrior rising up within me. I feel no pulse of courage running through my veins. I hear no battle cry encouraging me to stand.
There’s only this simple, quiet, almost inaudible whisper: “You’ve got this.”
And that is enough.
Katelyn Alexander 