Feeling Not Good Enough

There are some days when I feel overtly aware of my weakness. Days when I feel like I simply don’t have anything to bring to the table. I have a hundred ideas I would like to pursue and a to-do list a mile long. I have so much ambition and so little…anything else.

The past couple of weeks have been especially challenging. I recently published a blog on loving my body. And yet, as I’ve stared in the mirror, so many days I’ve felt anything but love for my body. My clothes felt tight and my skin’s been breaking out—thanks, dairy. I made so much progress in my health this summer and since moving, I feel like I’ve completely backtracked. For days, my room was a disaster. I had overflowing mounds of laundry that I wouldn’t have time to do until the weekend and I’d been thinking about washing my car for two weeks (as of right now, it’s been three).

I have wondered, for the millionth time, why I possibly think I can make it in LA.

Maybe You Should Just Quit

The familiar berating voice in my head began reminding me of every single reason why I am inadequate, not good enough, and most definitely going to fail.

Here I am, on this wild mission to encourage the world, faced with the voice of crippling discouragement.

AND YET.

And yet, as familiar as the voice of inadequacy is, I know that I don’t have to partner with it.

Making a Different Decision

So every morning as the massive list of weakness whispered in my ear, I made a decision.
I made a decision to remember my strengths.
I made a decision to remind myself of everything going right.
I made a decision to practice thankfulness for the little things.
And I made a decision to simply be.

Because ultimately, my adequacy and worth has nothing to do with what I do. My value comes simply from the fact that I’m alive. I was created in the image of God; I have a purpose. And I am enough.

I could fail a hundred thousand times over. My life could be a total flop. I could screw up absolutely everything. And I would still, inherently, be enough.

You Are Enough

So today, if you’re faced with the screaming voice of inadequacy, take a minute. Pause. Listen to the gentle, quiet whisper of love that never shames or berates or condemns.

You are enough.